Here we go!!!

Hullo my loves! 💋

If I hadn’t forgotten to make a New Years resolution this would be it: do what you love. And what do I love? Well asides from makeup and history, I love to write and talk, so making a blog seems pretty logcial doesn’t it? Still, I’m slightly scared to have people reading and judging my thoughts but maybe that’s beginners nerves! I’m not entirely sure what I’ll write but expect to see makeup and maybe a cheeky bit of poetry! Thank you always to my family and friends for the support, I love you always!

Signing out for now,

Kirsty ox

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Why I’m fed up with social media 🙅🏽

Hullo lovelies!!!

It’s been an interesting week or so for me ~ lots of work due and eating my first chocolate since about February. Plus it’s been pretty emotionally hard. My mum says I’m either very high or very low and it’s so true of me, most of the time (90%) I’m very high but you can’t be such a positive and energetic person without lows and when I crash down I CRASH. It’s been pretty difficult because I was really struggling with how I look at the moment, when I look at myself I just see a disgusting fat blob, not even a human. Yet when I look at food I either see it as the enemy and I can’t eat or I’m really hungry so I eat so much (I’ve been really hungry recently because of my hormones, if you know what I mean so I haven’t been loosing that much weight). I really wanted to be at a certain weight for my birthday and I honestly believed I would be, but now it doesn’t look like it will happy. My best friend told me ‘write down what you want to be and it’ll come to’, this is something I whole heartedly believe, so of course the first thing on the list is to be fairly slim and curvey (believe me you’ll KNOW when this happens and the other things on the list 😜 (Cillian Murphy watch out 😉)).

This does not mean, however, that I think having extra weight on you is a bad thing as such, I actually have seen so many beautiful big girls in my search for happiness. But I can’t be happy having this much weight on me, and if you’re not happy you change it. But just because I’m not happy doesn’t mean that because you have extra weight on you, you shouldn’t be happy ~ nah give em hell because every size and shape is beautiful because human beings are beautiful. A point that many people recently seem to have been forgetting.

I was disgusted today on twitter by two tweets ~ the first was about Meghan (it was the royal wedding day), and it said that because she has African descent, is older than Harry and is a divorcee she shouldn’t be able to marry into the royal family. Firstly, the royal family in England basically created divorce starting with Henry 8th. Secondly, HUMAN BEINGS ARE BEAUTIFUL. Meghan is stunning ~ so what about her race or her age? It doesn’t matter because Harry is in love with her and that is the important thing.

The second tweet was a bigger girl who’d put a photo of her in underwear on twitter and captioned it ‘fat is the new skinny’, which had then been quote tweeted with the usual obesity is disgusting and unhealthy. Okay two points about this from me; firstly, she shouldn’t have captioned it that because that is promoting the idea that one shape is better than another, which is clearly negative. Secondly, I am sick to death of people feeling as though they have a right to comment on other people’s bodies? They have absolutely no right to put a young girl down because of her size. The amount of people now who think it is okay to comment on everybody else and how they look is disgusting. Nobody has a right to put somebody else down because of their appearance. And furthermore, if you have never struggled with your weight to put somebody else down who has us actually insane because you have no idea what it is like. So many thin girls who eat exactly what they want and don’t put weight on seem to think it’s okay to tell bigger girls that they need to loose weight ~ knowing nothing about their position, what they eat, how much exercise they do etc. It’s not okay. You don’t know what you’re doing to that person for no reason? All they have to do is keep their harmful opinion to themselves. I was reading the other day about a plus size girl who had anorexia – yes you read that right, she had anorexia because she starved herself for days at a time. But nobody said anything. Nobody did anything because she was loosing weight. She went through the battle for years on her own because nobody ever thought that she could have a problem with food. Plus sized girls can have major issues with food too, it’s just society seems to ban that because how can someone who is fat have issues with food? But if you’re a plus sized girl and you’ve not eaten for a few days you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about. All the seeing food as an enemy but no one to turn to because by societies standard what you’re doing to yourself is good for you. The article I read, the doctors were actually congratulating her for loosing weight, which just propelled her to starve herself even more. If this had been a thinner girl we would be horrified, but as it’s not we just look past it and carry on.

This leads me to ask, why can’t we all just accept that humans are beautiful? Why does there have to be a perfect size? Why do people think it’s okay to put others down? There is no such thing as perfect, so therefore nobody has a right to put anybody else down because nobody is perfect themselves. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to go on social media and not see people putting others down, but I really hope one day I can.

Love, Kirsty ox

First impression ~ Too Faced, Lipstick queen and Kat Von D 🔥

Hullo lovelies!!!

I hope you’re all well and have had a wonderful week! The other day I received a VERY exciting email ~ 20% off at Sephora! I mean when does this ever happen??? So I thought I would take advantage of this as I needed a new primer (side note, why is primer so expensive???)! While I was in there (and to make up the amount needed for the 20% off) I picked up a new Kat Von D tattoo liner and a Lipstick Queen liquid lipstick and now I’m going to give you my first impression of them!

Too faced ~ Hangover Primer, €31,90, 40ml

I decided to go for the Too faced hangover primer as I love their makeup and, although expensive, you get 40ml (compared to benefit poreffessional €37,90 for 22ml). My first impression of this is that I love it!!!! In the past I’ve always hoped that primer would allow for longer staying power and yet (after trying all the top primers) I’ve still found that my makeup is crumbling by the end of the day. So imagine my amazement when after 12 hours my makeup was still flawless. It actually looked that good that I didn’t bother to change my makeup before going out (the first time ever). However, this is purely my own opinion and when I was looking up reviews, a common problem was the longevity of their makeup, but I honestly have never used a better primer. The only down sides I can find is that I don’t like the smell at all (in fact I nearly didn’t buy it because of this). Plus my skin has been breaking out but I don’t know if that is directly correlated to the primer. So overall I am in love with this primer, I’m so happy that I’ve finally found a primer that works!

Kat Von D ~ Tattoo liner in Trooper, €20, 0.55ml

This was not my first time buying this eyeliner, in fact it’s such a favourite of mine even my Dad knows about it. This eyeliner is the eyeliner to end all eyeliners. It’s actually a pen with a fine tip and you get 0.55ml. I find it incredibly easy to use, every time my eyeliner comes out perfect. I also recommended this to my friend who is a beginner and she finds it easy to use too, so it’s good for everyone really. The eyeliner is jet black; I compared it to urban decays pervasion and it was noticeably blacker ~ I ended up buying just the tattoo liner rather than an urban decay mascara and eyeliner set because it was that much darker. For me this is a must buy, I can’t live without one in my collection. The only problem is that after a while it dries up and the tip isn’t as sharp, but of course that is to be expected and in its prime time it’s phenomenal.

Lipstick Queen ~ liquid lipstick in Au Revoir from the Famous Last Words collection, €23, 6ml

This was a classic Kirsty moment – I needed one more item to meet the price for 20% off and spent an hour trying on tonnes of liquid lipsticks, only to buy the wrong shade from the lipstick queen collection (this is my first ever lipstick queen product) 😂 I wanted it in Sayonara (slightly darker red) but ended up with Au Revoir which is a red/coral (and it’s BRIGHT). A few things to note at this point ~ I) I dislike liquid lipsticks in general, like really dislike. I know this is an unpopular opinion but they are so drying, uncomfortable, hard to apply and go on awfully when you’re trying to reapply. II) I also don’t do coral or bright lipstick really. I love a dark lip over any other. So imagine my horror when I realised that I’d just bought a coral liquid lipstick. Well, I couldn’t have been more wrong, okay, sort of. The colour is still a slight problem for me (maybe a holiday shade), although I’ve been told it really suits me by others, but I’m still not that comfy with the bright shade! However, the formula of this liquid lipstick is amazinggggg, in fact maybe my favourite lipstick formula EVER. Described on the website as ‘long lasting, with none of the drying. Rich pigment, lightweight feel and hours of wear’, and well I couldn’t agree more. The feel is so light that I hardly notice it. In addition, the pigment is really good and it lasts longer than any other lipstick I’ve ever used (through three meals the other day). It’s safe to say I’d recommend this and I’ll be buying more for lipstick queen! I’m even considering going back and buying the colour I actually wanted, especially because I love the formula etc but the colour puts me off (although I have worn it the last three days ahahaha).

So yes ~ three amazing products and 20% off, a very happy day for me! I’m really glad I decided to take advantage of the offer. My first impression of these products is that all three are excellent, is recommend all of them.

I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week and let me know if you’ve ever tried any of these products and what you think of them if you have, or if you think you might try them!

Love, Kirsty on

The world ~ a poem 🌎🌍

Hullo lovelies!!!

I hope you’re all well and have had a lovely week! This is an old poem I wrote, hope you enjoy! ✨

The world ~

Stars leave me breathless

The moon makes me dance

Rivers are wild and exciting

While mountains are awe inspiring

The world inspires me everyday

While the law of attraction goes to work

Allowing me to believe in me

Knowing the future is bright

Until I turn to dust

And the world continues on

Have the best week all of you!!!

Love, Kirsty ox

Which eyeshadow palettes and shades are best for your eye colour? 👁💜

Hello lovelies!!!

I hope you’re all well and are having a wonderful week! This post had been a long time in the making! For agesssss I’ve been wanting to right about what colour eyeshadows suit each eye colour, while giving examples of palettes that will be good for every budget and each eye colour! So let’s get started!

Blue eyes ~ the recommended shades to really make those beautiful blue eyes pop are as follows, oranges, peaches, browns. I find that an orange and brown smokey eye combined with blue eyes is breathtaking! Palettes that I would recommend for blue eyes are: 1) Morphe 15D, 2) Mac Warm Neutrals, 3) Too Faced Sweet Peach, 4) Revolution Ultra, 5) Coloured Raine Queen of Hearts.

Hazel eyes ~ well aren’t you lucky having Hazel eyes, they’re so pretty! A truly versatile eye colour to make them pop you can choose from gold, cream, dark green, brown, purple! I think gold looks stunning with Hazel eyes to bring out the yellow tints and green hue! Palettes i would recommend: 1) Marc Jacobs Edgitorial, 2) Urban Decay Naked original, 3) Revolution fortune favours the brave, 4) Morphe 35R, 5) too faced chocolate bar.

Brown Eyes ~ the sultry and stunning brown eyes!!!! Brown eyes go with lots of colours but in order to bring them out to their full effect, try shades like purple, green, gold, navy! I personally think purple is so beautiful with brown eyes! The kind of palette I think you should get are: 1) Morphe 35P (of course), 2) Natasha Denona palette 28 (this is reallllly pricey though so definitely not for a budget), 3) Dior 208, 4) Hourglass colourfield, 5) Stila Eyes are the window.

Grey Eyes ~ my sister has grey eyes and I’m honestly so jealous, they’re sooooo beautiful and rare! To make grey eyes stand out colours that really work are, lavender, plum, orange, red. Palettes for grey eyes include: 1) Morphe 35P (okay lavender eyeshadow is difficult to find), 2) ABH modern Renaissance, 3) violet voss hashtag, 4) too faced everything nice, 5) Laura mercier artist palette.

Green ~ ahhhhh and this is where I really know my stuff because I too have green eyes! I’ve found that reds, pinks and purples are definitely the best for green eyes ~ if I’m late and I don’t really have time to do proper eyeshadow but what my eyes to stand out just using one shade that’s red or pink works wonders. If you’re brace enough red and pink eyeshadow will change your life if you have green eyes, the redder my eyeshadow the more compliments I get on my eye colour! Palettes for green eyes are: 1) Urban Decay Naked 3 (my go to I have NO time palette), 2) Morphe x Jaclyn hill, 3) ABH modern Renaissance, 4) Jeffree star Androgyny, 5) urban decay Naked Heat, 6) tarte in bloom.

 

Examples of red making my green eyes POP.

A general tip for anyone with light eyes is that smokey eyes and dark shadows really really make your eyes pop, so I would recommend trying a smokey eye out (maybe including some of the above colours)! I hope this was helpful and let me know if you want more palette suggestions or what palettes you like for your eye shades!

Love, Kirsty ox

China ~ poem 💛

Hullo lovelies!

I hope you’re all well! I’m currently sat in the airport waiting to fly to France, so I thought I’d read some of my poetry that I have on my phone, and this one stood out! So I thought I’d share it 💛

I constantly wonder

Why one persons opinion

Can matter so much to me.

It’s like I’m a piece of china

And without careful handling

I’ll shatter.

Then, you’ll brush me under the carpet

Forgetting I ever existed

While I remain in pieces

Never good enough for you

Until someone moves the carpet

And puts me back together

They’ll look after me

And I won’t shatter.

But I’ll never forget you

And the way you held me.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

Love, Kirsty ox

Jamsu makeup trick review

Hullo lovelies!

I hope you’re all well and have had an amazing week! If you keep up with my blog then I had a good one despite being on my own ahaha!

But enough of that, this is an important post! I was scrolling through Facebook when an ad came up. Now I would normally ignore them but this one caught my attention straight away. It was a video about the Korean beauty trick called Jamsu. For those of you who aren’t aware, this is the trend of covering your face with powder, after you’ve done your skin makeup, and then dunking it in water!!!! I always thought this was a crazy idea, after all how could water help keep your makeup on. However, this video I watched, the girl did it and claimed it worked and that’s when I knew I had to put it to the test.

So, not wanting to ruin my makeup and not have time to redo it, I decided to try at the end of the day. Although the idea is that you only do this with your skin makeup, not after you have a full face on. So, the first thing I did was take my Cody Air Spun powder and cover my entire face in powder (as this was at the end of the day I also applied it to my eyelids and lips to see what happens to your eyes as well. This left me looking….. interesting as well as my clothes covered in powder.

Then I filled my sink with cold water, contemplating if I was actually going to attempt this. After this brief contemplation I dunked my head in the cold water ~ I have dry skin so I kept my head in for 25 seconds, if you have combo skin, normal skin or oily skin the advice is 30 seconds. After being submerged in icy water, I withdrew my head, grabbed a towel and gently patted my face, before turning to the mirror. That was when I realised, with amazement, that my skin looked FLAWLESS and matte. Now I don’t Day this lightly, i love my foundation to be matte and so I have very high standards for mattification, but it actually worked and made my skin sooooo smooth! My advice, however, is definitely don’t do it with eyemakeup on as, although it didn’t run thanks to the powder I put on, it took away all the shimmer on my eyelids and the highlighter on face. Therefore, I would definitely recommend doing this, but just with foundation applied I think for the best results! But in all honestly I was astounded that this really works, you’ll have to try it for yourselves to see!

So that’s it for today!!! I hope you have a wonderful week and let me know if you try this (I apologise for the awful photos of myself but I wanted you to see how matte it is)!

Love, Kirsty ox

Stronger than I was

Hullo lovelies!

‘I don’t want the world to see me, cause I don’t think that they’d understand’ ~ Iris, Goo Goo Dolls.

So I had my friend over from England this weekend and it was really nice apart from one moment ~ a guy told me that I was fat and ugly. And it was like being punched in the face, repeatedly. You see I’ve always had weight issues that ruined my self esteem and this low self esteem has massively contributed to my life, the way I perceive things and contributed positively to my determination to support those around me. So recently I’ve been eating salad and running every day to try and loose weight and I’ve had much better self esteem. Also, I really wanted to pick up some of the modelling opportunities I’ve had, especially after loosing some weight. Plus being in Spain has majority helped me to realise that I will never be good enough for some people back in England, but at the end of the day that is their loss. Therefore, to be told that I’m fat and ugly didn’t really sit very well with me, in fact it brought back a lot of emotions I’ve been slowly getting over for the last three years. Not only that but I find it really difficult to talk about as it’s so embarrassing for me, to think that THAT is how people perceive me and have my worst fears confirmed. This meant I couldn’t talk to my friends about it because they’re all stunning, recognised by society, and so they would never have experienced something like this and so to talk about it to them would be mortifying.

My first reaction was very me, I thought to myself I’m just going to hold my head up high and ignore it. Then I started to assess the implications, like clearly that’s how people perceive me and no wonder people in the past haven’t wanted to be friends with me if that’s what I am. Which makes the spiral happen into negativity and makes it really difficult to even leave the house because that’s clearly how people view me. It also makes me realise that some of the hopes I’ve had for the future are clearly stupid, I need to lower my expectations 😂

Sadly, this isn’t the first time this has happened to me but it is the first time I’ve actually talked about it. And it breaks my heart that one comment can take me from a positive place to a negative place but it is a reminder that everything we say affects people. Now I’m in for a difficult week as I’m on my own with no uni and my friends here in Madrid have gone home for Easter, which means I’m going to need everything ounce of my positivity to pull me through. Also, going to see my friends in Toulouse has had some of the shine taken out of it because I’m already so aware of the attractiveness differences between us, but this adds to it. However, after the negative dip I’m sure I will only come out stronger and more determined to accept who I am.

So this is a reminder to always think about what you say before you say it, and if you judge someone for their appearance then you should take MJs advice and look in the mirror. As for anyone that has experienced similar nasty comments from anyone, hold your head up my love because you are more than just one comment, you’re more than how you look in the mirror and you’re more than the sad people who only value appearance. Instead of being upset by them, feel sorry for them that they are so insecure about themselves that they have to put other people down to feel good about themselves and their own looks. And if someone doesn’t want you because you aren’t attractive enough, fuck them because they clearly aren’t good enough for you.

I’m ready to battle the negativity and get back to my positivity. I think this is a good time to share,

Love

I always considered if it exists

Then I met you

And I knew it did

But you left.

Gone.

And my idea of love with you.

Until I realised,

It was possibly to love

Not only another person,

But myself.

Because we are all worthy of love

Especially from ourselves.

And that’s when I knew,

Love can exist

Even when it’s not from you.

Also Paramore, Hate to see your heart break is a really appropriate song for this post ❤️

Love always, Kirsty ox

I make mistakes

Hullo loves!!!!

Ahhhh I’ve been thinking (amazing I know), and you know when something just hits you and you realise that you’ve been too self obsessed of late. Sometimes I majorly let my pride get in the way, and when it comes to people who need your support never let pride get in the way. If they don’t reply to you at least you’ve tried your best and they know that you’re there if they need you! With the people I care about the most I often let my pride get in the way, it’s not the first time I’ve made this mistake and I should have learnt when I was younger. So this poem is an apology – to the people I should have been there for more in my life (particularly my mum in the past and friends in the present), and a promise not to let my pride get in the way and be less self obsessed. It’s better to have your pride hurt than for another person to be hurting alone ❤️

~Not my first mistake

I have to apologise.

Sometimes I speak before I think

And you mean the world to me

So it’s even worse.

I didn’t stop to consider

That your head is a mess

And you’re working through stuff

While trying to play it cool.

And I just want you to know

That I’m always here

If you want to talk

Or for a hug

Or just some teasing

And that will never change.

It could be the stupidest thing

Or we could figure the world out

Or just talk about you

But I’m here for all that

And I’m sorry I failed you.

Normally it’s so easy to talk to people

But it’s never been with you.

Even so, I just want you to know

That you’re beautiful in every way,

And I made mistakes

I was too focused on me,

Not on you, the one who needs me.

I never learnt how to ask if you’re okay

So I apologise

And I’m here for you

No matter when

I’ll be there to hold you tight.

Love, Kirsty ox

Integrity 🥀

Hullo loves!!

I hope you’ve all had a wonderful week! Personally, in the words of Dayana, mine was so lovely! I have some amazing friends in Madrid this term and so many exciting things planned (e.g. I’m going to tutor a bundle of joy English through Spanish and she’s going to tutor me Mandarin)! Butttt you all know what Sunday means! Poem day 😍😍😍 Today was about facing another part of my journey and I found this really difficult to write and think about, but you have to recognise things to work through them! I hope you all have a lovely next week, everyday is a gift! Yep, even Monday! 💛

~Integrity

Most days are good days

And then you hit a bad one

And it’s like the whole world crashes down

I remember that I’m not cool

And I’ll never fit in

That people think my positivity is odd

And it hurts more than you can know

That I was never cool enough for you

And not even as a friend

Cause I’m too enthusiastic

And I’ll throw myself into everything

And I want to help everybody I can

But this comes at a price

I’ll never be like everybody else

Sometimes people laugh at me

And the pain when it’s even your family

And some days it’s so hard

I never cared until I met you

And I just wanted you to like me

And when I had it thrown in my face

It broke me and I knew I had to get away

But now I’ll never be the same

As part of me wants to leave the uncool and enthusiastic girl behind

The girl who lights up so many worlds

Instead, I want to be someone you’d like

And who is cool and beautiful

And people admire

But I don’t think I can be that if it means compromising my integrity

So I’ll just have to be me

And accept that people like you

Will never be friends with people like me

Love, Kirsty ox

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